Saturday, May 05, 2007
1:39 PM
yesterday night, after talking to miaochen, i was talking to a friend.... and somehow... felt sad... and miaochen told me.. its the Holy spirit that is sad... and den.. i went to pray... and as the song in my com was playing.. ' how great is our God', i cried out to the Lord.. ' Lord, what am i to do? i dont know what to do... tell me what to do.. im so lost...' and i was weaping... feeling so lost... feeling so hurt... and suddenly, i felt a prompting of a verse, and i knew it was God... its matthew 5:16.. and after praying, i flipped my bible, searching for that verse, tears still in my eyes.. and den.. as i read the verse... oh great, i cant describe how i felt.. i just felt so touch... the verse was lyk.. exactly what i needed at that moment... and the verse is... ' In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they will see your good deeds and praise your father in heaven.' i totally pause there, look at the verse, and cried out... and den.. i told miaochen about it... and she was lyk ' woahh!' indeed, God knows every tear i cry.. God knows the pain in me.. and he has taken it away... and im going to do what God has told me to do... i dont have to do anything to win their trust, win their heart, but all i will do is pray... and after that, i called kelly.. and yeap... told her everything from the start... and yeap.. lyk what she said, its no use talkin to someone whose heart is already closed... i'll wait... HEE xD.. and ive realised smth.. life as a christian is really interesting... though sometimes, feeling lost, feeling hurt, but knowing that theres someone there, who knows everything.. it feels great... and ofcus... there would be joy... and most importantly, i know.. i am not alone....
