Tuesday, May 22, 2007
10:19 PM
oooo!! its another boring day!! haha.. yar.. super boring day.. i cant describe how boring it is.. wadever... one thing, it gonna be holiday soon.. yippi! which means i dun haf to go to school. going to school means sian and sian.. i feel lyk hiding myself.. i feel lyk running away.. where can i hide? school seems to be getting more and more tough... i guess its all how i manage it... exams are over.. bt still, dun seem to be in the holiday mood... today, got back the results slip... everyone counted their avg.. except for me... i didn bother to count.. just look at the marks.. never fail, im happy enough.. i just looked at the grades. and done... bt people around me? comparing marks.. asking ' wads ur avg? wads ur avg?' and i was thinking.. ' am i suppose to count my avg mark?' and after that... i realised that almost EVERYONE has counted their avg marks. so i told natalie to count for me.. the avg was quite horrible... but nvm.. its alrite.. i dunno wad am i suppose to feel abt this avg mark.. if im sad.. i feel so miserable.. if im happy. i feel pathetic. so.. i decided not to care at all.. BIG DEAL. its just marks. is there more things that are important than marks? i guess there are.. what if one day, i topped the whole class or even the school. and then, im so happy. but when i walk out of school that day.. i gt into a car accident and died... how pathetic... so is that marks i got so important? i dun think so...
seriously, i dun think i would survive at this point of time if i dont have God wif me.. i would have given up my life. for it is miserable..
BUT.. IVE FOUND LIFE IN JESUS CHRIST! and that is why i am living now...