Friday, July 20, 2007
5:14 PM
hmm well, wad can i say? might sound abit emo la. HAHA! well first of all, I AM SOO TIRED! feel lyk im gonna drop dead any moment. HA! just kidding! lols! well, ytd... had a great time talking to meiling yea.. den went home.. things went upside down... just very confused la... ha! den went to sleep early... cus dun wan to think about it anymore... yeap.. was sad.. i was actually thinking of taking something and knock my head so i can go to the hospital. ( HA. I NOE THATS FUNNY!) okay... yar.. i didn want to go to school the next day.. and i was asking God why did he gif me and take it back... i rmb one sermon before... when God gives, he will take back... this is it.. izin it? i guess so.. alrite.. if God wants to take it away from me... TAKE IT! maybe God is testing me.. testing to see if im strong enough? well.. i hope i'll pass the test then. haha! okay! yesterday was still OKAY... today.. worse worse worse... after school, when the bell rang at 1pm.. i chiong to npcc room.. den.. i stood outside the door.. it was closed. so i tried opening it... WAH! CAN OPEN! bt i so scared.. dun dare to go in.. so i faster ran away.. i wasn sure if there was anyone inside.. wad should i say? wad should i do? i was so scared.. and so i went to the other side and looked inside the NPCC room to see if there is anyone.. and i could not see anyone... so, i decided to just knock the door and go in to see if there is anyone.. and if there is no one, i'll leave.. and i was thinking that there was no one.. so... i just knocked and went in.. but how i noe.. i saw SOMEONE! i was lyk ' ah! i tot no one!!' bt no chance to turn back already.. i saw yvonne using the computer.. i stood dere for lyk 30 secs before i walked up to her and talked to her.. wah... at that time... i suddenly felt lyk... okay! i cant describe... its totally scary.. bt after awhile, i talked to her lyk a friend... bt i realised that she didn really care wad i say.. i dunno la.. who noes rite? yeaap.. and after that.. i really nothing to say already... so i told her i shall leave.. so i walked out of the NPCC room.. really dunno how to say u noe... abit sad... den went back to class... was really sad at that time.. wah.. i really cannot tahan... i dunno how to describe la.. LOL! its lyk.. wadever u say, i dont care.. if u tell me ure gonna kill me, i oso no response. and suddenly felt very very VERY xinku... its lyk... suddenly bomb me with so many things... that incident yesterday.. and today, THIS. i was really lost.. i really dunno wad to sae la... its a super terrible feeling... and i didn want to go for training anymore... bt after awhile.. i relax abit.. and did some thinking... and den i went to change into my full uniform.. haha! yeap... and half way during NP, God suddenly told me ' hey.. u noe, im actually really proud of u.. u were so brave to share about me'. and that changed my mood abit... den i did some thinking.. HEY! really la... who would dare to share the gospel with my ma'am? HAHA! and i told darren about it... and he started laughing at me.. he said ' why for so many ppl, u choose her?' haha! actually, i dont noe either.. XD well, i think that God is really breaking my heart... i mean.. wont suddenly so many things bomb at me one ma... YEAP! i'll learn.. I AM AN OVERCOMER!! wahhaha!! OKAY! den after that, during npcc, there was PROMOTION TEST. theory.. WAH! that one... super hard la... cus i dunno anything.. the questions they ask are so stupid lei... i never expect them to ask something lyk that... then yourui kept disturbing us.. make me laugh until... HAHHAA!! cus he said smth that he last time take this paper, it was VERY easy.. and the question is ' WHAT IS YOUR NAME?' oh my goodness, its super funny and LAME. hahaha! ohh... whee~~ there's cell later! BLESSING PEOPLE! WOOHOO! and there would be service on sunday! CANT WAIT TO GO! cus.. BENSON is going too!! XDD whee!!
