Sunday, March 16, 2008
7:50 PM
firstly,HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YINGXIN!sry yingxin, its belated because i didn use the com ytd. ahha! WELL, on friday night, i felt kinda guilty, towards God... i realised that i can spend many many hours on the computer and spend less than 1/2hr on God... and i felt that God was very upset with me... so i told him i wont use MSN on sat and sunday... well, i keep chatting on MSN.. and its really causing problems in my relationship with God. so last night, i was happily chatting with God.. and thanking him that i was able to not use the com for that day... and then.. he told me to fast MSN until santification wk... i was like "are u sure?" and i kept asking and asking.. and like.. bargaining with him. AHAHA! in the end, i made up my mind " okay! i will fast msn until santification week." it was a quite tough decision... cus God always reminds me a verse about not keeping promises... and that he rather i not promise him than to keep empty promises... well, i really dunno if i can fast until then... hard.. very hard!! okay... den during BN144 ytd, belle shared about something about reacting what God would react.. and about God's heart i guess? and yep, i kept thinking about it... ive been asking God for a heart transfomation... yeaa man! LOL!
went for service today... the ride there was very boring.. because i went alone :( hehe! bt well, service was great! i kept smiling.. bt i realised that the ppl's faces around me seems to be quite moody... lols... den abit smile bu chu lai leh. HAHA! hmm, i felt that i have kinda renewed my love for God... today's sermon was about the loss of faith... ehh.. not bad sia.. few days ago i was also like crying to God about the loss of faith in me... so yep, the sermon was really for me lah.. hehe! den after service, kelly talked to us.. and told us smth la.. related to our attitude towards coming to service and cell... well, i was thinking about what she said... and i thought about how i was like when i first accepted christ... indeed.. where is the faith that i once had? bt well, i feel that im drawing nearer to God already, probably because of the 40days prayer and fasting... well,santification week is coming soon... like what kelly told us, im not going to leave that place without a transformation in my life!
i like this verse!
PSALM 73:26
my flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
