Wednesday, May 14, 2008
8:08 PM
* yingxin, i'll do ur quiz tmr. gabbie, i'll post the photos tmr =xtoday is another terrible day in school. well, these 3 days, from monday to wednesday ... are terrible but GREAT days... monday and tuesday, God put some storms in my life and shook me... that was about my exams and results... and by God's grace, i got out of it and i stood even stronger than ever... and today, God sent another storm in my life... but it was not about exams.. it was about relationship with my friend. btw, thank God that i passed my chem and phy... im quite happy with the marks :) anyway.. about my relationship with my fren.. well, we kinda argued... it was so sudden... and i got a shock... i didnt really noe how to react... we threshed out some things and i got very fedup and could not control myself so i walked out of the classroom... thank God tt guin was with me and she prayed for me... and well, i was really upset.... first, God gave me everything... and he took it away one by one... and eveyday (since monday) , i am thrown something that makes me depressed, something that makes me broken hearted... and once i get out of it, trusting God and gaining something from it, i am thrown another one... i felt that my world was crashing... and i was crying out to God " i cannot stand it already! why like that? i tot that everything was alright already... but everytime i get out of my broknness, u'll put me in such situations again and again!" and i was about to scream when God spoke again....
i believe that he is moulding me... in EVERY area of my life... i always tot that my relationship with my friends are good... but its only then did i realise that i was wrong... bt actually, i knew that there was something wrong between us... and thank God that its solved now! indeed, GOD HAS A TIMING FOR EVERYTHING! and well, i started to think why God did that.... well, he wants me to rely on him... and to commit everything in his hands... my studies, my personal life... my relationship with my friends... because, everything is in his control! God is really changing my character... and i noe it... i could sense his presence when i was crying out to him.. calling him for help... in these few days, God was really testing me.... anyway, about my relationship with my friend.. by God's grace, we threshed everything out... clarify every matter and now, our friendship is stronger than ever... most importantly, i learnt something... and i felt that i have been transformed... u see, God wont put storms in your life for NOTHING! indeed, blessing comes only through brokenness!
though being broken by God is not a very NICE thing, i noe that i have to let go of everything... and i rmb that pastor said smth like this last sunday
"EMPTY OUT EVERYTHING IN YOUR LIFE, SO THAT GOD CAN FILL IT!" and i told him "help me to empty out everything to you!" indeed, God answers prayers, even tho i did not say it fully from my heart... haha! but thank God that he has broken me and changed me... i noe that he is doing a deeper work in my life...... :)
"Blessed are those who have learnt to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, O Lord. They rejoice in your name all the day long; they exalt your horn. Indeed, our shield belongs to the Lord..."I AM AN OVERCOMER!
