Sunday, September 21, 2008
5:51 PM
today, i went for the morning service! which is the adult service at 9am. so, i got up quite early and actually wanted to go back and sleep but den i noe had to go for service!! hahaha! i went to the morning service because i wanted to have more time to study in the afternoon. and so... i went there alone. i rmb going to adult service last year and it was just "so-so lor" and i tot this time would be the same.. but i was wrong! the moment i stepped into the adult service, i just feel that the atmosphere is very different because u get to see aunty and uncle praising God and they look so excited. and yep, the worship was great... and today's sermon was shockingly amazing because it really spoke to me... since the beginning of the week, i was faced with some problems with myself. i felt that i had lost compassion for de people around me. esp christians. somemore on friday, kelly mentioned about being spiritual and not religious...
den the sermon was abt staying fit for the battle. de pastor mentioned about guarding our heart. and he gave alot alot of examples and said alot of things that were very relevant to me. "the heart is the deepest level of who you are". and i realised that my thoughts have not been right. instead of showing compassion towards a person, i'll think tt tt person is crazy. ok.. den he talked about developing character, about being transformed. and he mentioned about the fruit of the spirit.... peace, joy, kindness, patience, compassion............ yeap... it really spoke to me. very clearly.. den, there was altar calling... at first i didnt thought of going for altar calling.. because i went for service alone and i dunno anybody there. bt den the pastor said
"God has been moving in many areas of your life. But God is nudging you in one particular area of your life. you come forward..." den my heart started beating very fast and i felt that i really needed to go forward. God has really moved in many areas of my life. in my studies, i learnt that he is in control of everything. in my open cell, i learnt that it is HIS open cell and not mine. he brought me through many storms, temptations, failures and disappointments, and this time, i knew that had lost the compassion for people and i needed a heart transformation. and so, i went up.
so i knelt down before the Lord and cried my heart out... i have not been understanding enough. i have shut my eyes and not see the needs of the people around me. then, someone came to pray for me.. and i was so encouraged by what she said. "God holds your life in the palm of his hands" and so, today's service was really good. and i felt that was a little change in me. i went home with a deep sense of joy in my heart. and whats more? there was a shuttle bus to jurong east mrt station! WAHAHA! no need to squeeze in the train! LOL!
