Wednesday, October 22, 2008
8:46 PM
well, first of all, sunday! went for service as usual, met eeling for lunch and we were talking about cell. eeling was saying that our cell change alot already. i kinda agree with that. and we were talking about next year.... wah! i think next year is going to be a terrifying year for me. i can SENSE it! HAHAHA! the sermon was quite alright. because i heard the exact same one at the hopsital ministry conference. just that the pastor shared more at that conference. the sermon was about serving. and the most funny thing i caught from the pastor is when he told us that we can start serving at home, in the office. and he said that last time he was the chairman of the meeting because he arrange the chairs. YAHAHAHA! lame rite? yeap, and the pastor shared alot la. the worship was not bad too. bt didnt really speak to me...
today, i woke up at 6 plus... and got ready to go to east coast park. me, benson, meiling, amy, selvia and nadia went to east coast to pray... joshua and guin wasnt able to go. sad case. anyway, i told my dad that i was going there to play, but actually, i went there to pray. haha! started at about 9.30am and it ended at about 11.30am. 2 hours... it was a very very good time for me... but for the rest, im nt sure about it. i prepared a whole lot of things to pray... and 2 hours is not enough! gt lots of things to pray... school, studies, church, family, friends. so we found a place to sit down and started praying by ourselves. ppl must be thinking we're strange. den the most amazing thing happened. i lost my phone. LOL! i was wondering where it went and when i realised that it was really missing, i was really frightened because i cant live without my phone. LOL! because all my worship songs are stored inside. hahaha. and one second after i said "God, please help me find my phone!", meiling shouted for me and told me that someone picked up my phone and told me to call my number. and i kinda got a shock. LOL! in the end, i got back my phone... a little pri school boy picked up my phone. i dunno what else to say besides 'thankyou'. lols! so hard to find such a nice soul that will return u your phone.
den, i went back to pray.. was thinking about alot of things... esp hospital visitation ministry. because, my pastor havent email me and i have been worrying since the day i went for the conference. last week during worship, the pastor said something like this "take the first time and God will run to you" and eeling told me "eh! go email de pastor la! take the first step!" i did, but he didnt reply my email.. and so i was asking God why why why. izit because im not ready? or because my heart is not right? or probably because i just have to wait. and now, i think i noe why.... den, benson walked towards me and told me this " i was praying and i found this beside me." and in his hands was a necklace, with a cross... and not just a normal one, still gt Jesus on it. and i look at it, abit blur... shockingly amazing la. den... i started thinking about open cell. sometimes, quite tired of it. last week, i was thinking abt open cell and i started complaining to God. complain complain complain. i think i complain for more than 1 hour. and i wanted to say "byebye. forget it." bt the reply was "out of the how many hundred christians, i chose you." lols. got it. sometimes i wonder why God's answers always so direct one. LOLS!
today's "prayer day" was not bad. at least joshua didnt lie to me by saying that the atmosphere is different. althought it was quite hot, the wind was very strong and its quite a nice place to pray because infront of you is the sea and sky and sand. nothing else, nothing more. ( but if i turn back, gt alot of little kids running about) but well, it was an enjoyable time. and God answered alot alot alot alot alot alot alot of my questions. :)
"God, open my eyes to see the needs of the people around me.""you cant use your eyes to see. u need to use your heart."
