Saturday, February 28, 2009
6:47 PM
wheee~ im so busy... (as usual) i guess everyone is busy studying for common test too... i havent finish revising anything for next week. OH NO! lets not talk about common test.... it is depressing.
today, i went to NUH... actually, because for the past 3 months, ive been going there on my own, i realised that it is quite hard for me to talk to patients because sometimes the patients are not really willing to open up to me.. probably because im a kid. but i think going there really drives me towards God... and it keeps my CQ high... i realised that i always struggle with this 2 words "MAIN FOCUS" what is my main focus in open cell, what is my main focus in going to NUH. and i was thinking about it yesterday night... yes, it is a platform to learn, to grow.. but i think the main focus should be blessing others. :)
so today, walked around ward 57 and 58 for dunno how many times again... realised that a lady kept looking at me so i went to talk to her. she is miss choo, 38 years old bt looks like 20 plus only. she told me she has fits and cannot talk properly. actually i dun really know whats wrong with her leh... bt i realised that her IQ not very high... she was hospitalized beause she fell down and injure her leg.. and shes very sad because she cant walk now. at first when i talked to her, she told me that shes very worried for her grandmother who is in changi general hospital. den she say until like very sad... den after that she say "i tell u something... actually, i prefer my grandfather. but he passed away already" anyway, i think she is very cute... she told me that she has 3 dogs at home.. one is called lucky, one is call bobo. and the other is called cha cha... and she like to eat zui kuay, you zha kuay and dunno what.... LOL! i think she looks rather happy... but den she told me that she has no friends and that i am her best friend. you know, when i heard that, i was like... speechless... ok. i dunno what to say. den she asked me what i want to be in the future. i told her that i want to be teacher.. and she say that the only thing she want to do is to earn money for her mother. okay.. when i heard that, i was also speechless. actually, i feel really touched by what she said. when you look at her, she is like abit paralysed, cant really talk.. but deep inside her heart, she loves her mum so much. she told me that before she was hospitalized, she was working part time job.... just to earn some money for her mum. and i saw her mum just now... she looks very healthy.. but i think shes 60 over already. and her mum is like still taking care of her.
you must be thinking... her life is so sad... she has no friends, she is not married, her parents are so old already. she cant walk, she cant talk properly, she is sick..... at first i thought so too... but actually, she is happy. she is satisfied with what she has. she have her zui kuay, her you zha kuay, her parents and her family. and that is all she need. you dont have to be perfect on the outside to be perfect on the inside.. izint it so?
