Saturday, February 21, 2009
8:51 PM
hello everybody! i am so tired... this week is such a tiring week... lots of tests, lots of homework.. bt yes, i did remember to put on my crown everyday.. bt i told denise that it drop off on wednesday and thursday. anyway, wad's worse is that i havent really had a good sleep. i cant really sleep... i'll lie on my bed for at least an hour before i sleep... i usually dont do that. i dunno why also.. probably because theres lots of things to worry about... sometimes i really wonder why i worry abt so many things...
i went to play tennis with denise yesterday evening. finally played with her sia. tt fella always pangseh me. HAHA! ok la.. quite fun.. bt i was so tired.. i dun understand why denise dont feel tired... after that, we went to lot 1 for dinner with kelly, shermaine and felicia. we had a good time talking. bt i was just listening to them hehehaha... funny bunch of people... anyway, im so glad tt kelly was there.. i shared about open cell and felt so happy after hearing what kelly said... i was telling them that i am very worried about this year because there alot of things i have to do... i am struggling with TIME. i have to worry about my studies, church, open cell, hospital ministry. its the beginning of the year bt i feel so tired already and i am so worried abt whats going to happen when o level is nearing. i think the thing that has drained out all my energy is open cell. its time to restructure everything.
today, went to NUH... feeling tired but still... its a commitment. walked around ward 57 and 58 for dunno how many times.. saw this uncle sitting down doing something so i went towards him... he looked at me and smile. OH! and since he smiled at me... TADA! i talked to him! he was playing chinese chess with himself so he asked if i would like to play with him. so anyway, i played chinese chess with him. we played 3 times.. i won once only... hes quite a pro. actually im supposed to lose all the way.. bt he hint me a lot of times. HAHA! cute uncle. his name is yeo bak siang. very friendly uncle... he was warded because theres blockages inside his intestines. he told me he has cancer too, bt it is not because of his cancer tt he is warded.. but i think if theres blockages inside his intestines. its probably colon cancer? anyway, i saw a big hole at his right shoulder. i dunno if i saw wrongly, but it looks like a very very big hole to me... quite scary actually.. he told me that its for some kind of treatment for his cancer... to put medicine inside or something. anyway, he was very happy that i played chess with him.. if not he would be feeling lonely playing by himself. somehow, when i played with him, i felt happy too. although i was feeling very tired.. but seeing the uncle smile makes me wanna smile too.
den, i talked to another patient.. one aunty, lee bee kim... i think her character is like my grandmother. she was warded because she injured her legs. i didnt talk much to her because she dont seem to want to talk... bt she wanted me to sit beside her so i just did so. quite awkward actually.. but den she still thank me for talking to her.
rushed back home and bought lunch for my mum and my sis. yesterday night my mum was saying "eh. tmr i go NUH with you?" and i was like WHAT? bt den she say she gt flu so i tell her to stay at home. oh no.... hopefully she wont want to follow me next time... LOL! den.. i had tuition from 3pm all the way until 7pm.... cleared my math hw... and i finally understand the confusing chapter on METALS..
i seriously need a break...
