Sunday, March 15, 2009
10:19 PM
hello everybody. i finally have the time to update my blog... it has been a tiring week and an extremely busy weekend. i cannot describe to you how tired i am.. but spiritually, i am REFRESHED again.. okay...be prepared for a long post today :)
FRIDAYi didnt have training... it was on wednesday. HA! thank God there wasnt training.... i headed down to EXPO and took the same train as shuwen and suen... shuwen is so lame i cant stand her. they alighted at raffles place because they wanted to go shopping. HAHA! anyway, i was already feeling tired on friday... had G12 CONFERENCE! AHHHhhh! it was amazing.. i only went for 2 sessions... but both the sermons spoke to me.... the first one was preached by pastor cesar's daughter. shes only 17 years old!! and she preached about living in the spirit. actually, one of the reasons why i went for G12 is because i needed an answer to why i lost the joy of serving God in open cell. and the first sermon already spoke to me... i realised that ive been doing things on my own strength... God reminded me to rely on the Holy Spirit. the preacher shared an interesting story...
once, she almost drowned and she was under the water and there was something heavy on her legs and she could not go up to the surface. for a moment, she thought that she was going to die and was struggling... but then, she decided to surrender everything to God and rest in him... then, she felt someone pulling her up back to the surface. she thought it was her friend but there wasnt anyone around her. the main thing is... when you go through difficult times, learn to rest in God. i felt that i needed to surrender everything to God... and i am learning to live in the spirit and listening to the Holy Spirit.
then after dinner, delirious? led us in worship... i think it was quite exciting... but i think some of the songs they sing abit too rock already. anyway, the sermon after that was preached by pastor claudia. it was about following our star. actually i wasnt really listening to her because i was half asleep... and i was quite confused because there was 2 voices.. one from the pastor, and the other from the translator.... after that was altar calling... the sermon was about our STAR, the place that God has called us to shine. at first i didnt really understand so i didnt go for altar call. but den, i realised that the star in my life now, is open cell. yes, i have surrendered everything to God. but i realised that God had to heal me from all the disappointments that i had faced in the past. and i realised that ive been working like mad but have forgotten about the love of God.
SATURDAYwoke up at 5 plus and reached school at 6.30am. i was sooo tired. i only reached home on friday night at about 10pm and i was still in my school uniform. anyway, i didnt go for G12 conference because i had to go for HRC (high ropes challenge). i think it was quite fun. it was my first time smiling as i walk into pulau ubin. usually, i will give a long face and i will complain and complain. ya. although it was quite tiring, but it was fun.. the one i like most is the flying fox. it is something that ive never tried before and had always wanted to try. and it is very very high.. its like.... 5,6 storey high.... when u look down, its scary... and when we were at the top, pakhon said "claudia, i feel like crying." and i felt like laughing. actually i was quite scared too because its really scary to look down from the top.... and i was sitting at the edge with my legs sticking out.. and i was thinking... "instructor, u better put that thing properly to the rope.. my life is in your hands" after that, i had a family bbq at night... after i finished eating, i went back up home to sleep... i was lying on my bed at 7 something, feeling exhausted...
SUNDAYi woke up and arms and legs were aching...... hahah! went for service as usual.. it was not bad... worship was led by delirious?... the service ended later than usual today tho... and then we had processing and after that kelly prayed for me. i will always rmb wad God said. went for lunch after that and den me and kelly went to janice and fiona's house. in case u dont know, janice is a patient that i visited at NUH a few weeks ago. she was warded because she had fits. we took a taxi there from bedok because it was raining... in the taxi, kelly wanted me to pray but i didnt really dare to and i cant think of anything to pray about.... and i was so happy when we arrived at the bus stop near her house because i thought "yay! reach liao... i dont have to pray already!" but in the end i still had to pray. LOL!
went in to their house... brought along a little gift... janice seems happy to see me... and i saw fiona for the first time. she doesnt look like her sister tho... they are very funny and cute... i dunno why sometimes i talk to them i feel like crying. well, at least this shows that my heart is not hardened. at first i thought that she could not walk because she fell down.. but actually, she could not walk from birth. and she is still very upset about it. i asked her about her legs and at first she didnt want to tell me so i guess shes really upset about not being able to walk. but in the end, she told me that she could not walk since birth. her face like want to cry want to cry like that... but she didnt... janice and fiona comes from a good family.. they live in a bungalow. and their mum is really nice. they also have 2 maids and a friendly aunt. i havent seen the dad tho... but they did show me pictures of their family photo ... they all look happy. well, i havent sense what God wants me to do next. But im going to pray and ask BIG. kelly gave me a shock by asking me "hmm.. i think nxt time we can invite them to parties hor? good friday?christmas?" oh well.... janice is going back to NUH this thursday.. hopefully i can go visit her there again.... :)
THE STAR IS SHINING AGAIN! PRAISE GOD!
