Monday, May 25, 2009
5:31 AM
hello everybody! school has been quite interesting lately because of funny people like shuwen, suen and guin. they are silly people that like to do silly things. the only bad thing is that when i sit with them, i cant concentrate during lessons...hoho
on friday, i went out for lunch with meiling at KFC. we had a good long chat... i actually wanted to go training, but we end up talking until 4 plus... so, i pon training.. oops. ok, im not going to give any letter because i'll be lying. in any case, it has been a long time since i last talk about serious things to meiling. and thank God for that time. she smsed me later in the evening telling me that she was reading the devotional book and God spoke to her. well, i feel that God is doing a deeper work in my life and the lives of people around me. after that, i went for cell. it was combined cell and i think its quite fun, and the people there are hilarious. ok, some of them.
today's service was not bad. the sermon today was about wolves and snakes and doves. LOL! in any case, all the sermons nowadays are talking abt marketplace transformation and its kinda relevant to me. and, i really really really really really really really need wisdom. wisdom to respond to people's actions and thoughts. wisdom to approach people, wisdom about open cell. most importantly is wisdom on what to say.
after service, went for lunch with kelly, dunlin, kaiyun, kaiyun's baby and sister. we went to changi airport to eat. so i was sitting down with 3 leaders and talking to them. at first i thought that i was ready to go back to open cell, but i realised that i was not ready. theres still a thousand things i have to settle with God. last year's sabbath wasnt a sabbath. i think its my sabbath now! so please, let me rest.. actually, i felt that i have wasted more than 1 year of my time on open cell. but i am now convicted that
nothing i do for God will go to waste!kaiyun asked a very interesting question
"What do you believe in Jesus?" i think its a very chim question that i cannot answer. or maybe, i need time to think how to answer. because i dun want to answer it from my head, but from my heart.
God keeps speaking to me, and its a good sign. after letting go some of the things, i feel so much better. But i still need to hear from God. i dont want to end up at the same place, same situation and have that same stupid feeling. and i feel that before i go back, i need to have compassion again.
"without love, you are NOTHING." love transforms, and without love, i am really nothing. i want that kind of compassion, for the lost sheeps, again.
