Thursday, March 24, 2011
11:53 PM
When i was planning for this week, i told myself that i should set aside one day to go to NUH. So i thought that thursday would be good. Since friday afternoon is always super packed and i can't make it on saturday. I haven't been serving in hospital ministry for about 5 months already. I've been thinking a lot about it and was initially abit uncertain if i should continue serving in this area. I think last night was one of the worst nights ever. I didn't really get to sleep and i kept thinking about a lot of things. I had many many dreams throughout the night and in my dreams, i was contemplating if i should go NUH. I don't know why i was filled with fear and I suddenly felt so terribly scared that i really don't want to go NUH anymore. I woke up feeling so frightened and lost. And i also don't really know why. I got out of bed and told myself that i shouldn't entertain those thoughts so i went to play the piano. It took me a long long time before i finally decided to go NUH. I was supposed to reach there at 11am, but i only left home at around 11am. I was still feeling a little scared when i reached. I was thinking, "Oh no, would i get to talk to anyone today?" The first patient i met was rather negative. She is an old lady and she kept talking about the patients around her passing away. Not long later, her family members came so i said byebye to her. After that i saw uncle koh! He is the one who invited me to his baptism last year but i could not go because i was overseas. I was very surprised to see him, and i was even more shocked when i saw his condition. I actually felt very very sad when i saw him because his condition deteriorated so much that i could not accept it that moment. He could not walk and could not talk properly and i didn't know what happened to him. Awhile later, his younger sister came. I've met his wife several times but i've never met his sister before. So she asked me who i was and then she started preparing the food for uncle koh. So there was silence for a quite some time. Then she suddenly looked at me and said, "Hey, I think your presence is really encouraging! Actually i was feeling very down in the morning and i just sent prayer request to my 2 friends. You know, I'm really glad to see you here." I stun for a few seconds before telling her that i had a terrible morning too and what she said really encouraged me. So we were talking and i trying very hard not to cry. Haa! To cut the long story short, i went to the kopitiam at NUH main lobby with her to have a drink and we chat for another 1 hour plus. HAHAH! And she prayed for me after that.I think God is so good! I'm sure it is his divine plan for us to meet. It's like our presence encourage each other! HAHA! And she also encouraged me and affirmed me of my work in hospital ministry. And you know what? She is taking a counselling course now and she shared with me some of her experiences and some counselling tips. HAHAHA! I can't be more certain that this is the ministry that God has called me to serve! HURRAY! I FEEL SO EXCITED NOW!
